a cold blooded man and woman

would u let ur girl cry and end the call just because u wan to study?
would u let her cry loudly just because she miss u?
would u let her disappointed again?
would u let her disappear in ur life again?
would u put down ur temper and talk softly to her?

NO!!!!
u wouldn't!!!

i get a lesson from this incident
no wonder how i miss him and call him,
so won't touch because my word
and wat i get is "I had no enough time to sleep ad, wat u wan to said summore?"
when i heard this, I feel that i'm not important to him
i said again, "i miss u"
wat i get is "END CALL"
actually he know i hate ppl end my call
even he dun know, i talk to him for few times
but still get end call from him
I know that this is just a small incident
but anything happen just because u didn't care for the small thing
then it become a really big trouble

sorry. I can't take any end call anymore that from you...
If u still no confident that u won't end my call
and u dun really want to spend few minutes to me just because i miss u,
sorry, i can't take it anymore.
when the day u sure that u won't end my call,
then u find me as well
i'm not angry with u
just disappointed
y u didn't really care about my word
i know i did fault too
u think that i'm disturbing ur mood to study
but think again
am i did wrong?
as a girlfriend, miss u is a wrong?
i shouldn't make myself suffer like this
u is my boyfriend only
but what u do, really disturbing my mood and temper

as i said
when u sure that u won't end my call
then find me as well...
love u forever
Lynn

我们真的完了

胃痛远远比不上心痛
手指还是会不由自主的按着你的号码
没有勇气按下拨打键
怕听见你不爽的语气
怕听见你说不爱我的声音
怕被你盖电话
我还爱你吗？
你还爱我吗？
当初我们在一起的定义是什么？
我们在一起的定义，
不是为了幸福快乐吗？
不是为了要永远在一起吗？
不是要有一间小屋，有一个很大的院子，养了两只狗狗，
做个很平凡又幸福的夫妻吗？
这一切，都忘了吗？
如果这天你要这样对待我，
那当初为什么你要追我？
为什么你说要保护我，
但伤害我最多的人却是你？
为什么说要跟我在一起一辈子，
现在却对我冷淡了？
为什么爱一个人那么痛苦，
你却没有告诉我？
为什么说会好好对待我，
现在做的却是跟说的不一样？
为什么明知道会有这一天的来临，
我当初还要相信你？
为什么你对我说了一大堆谎言，
我还是要对你深信不疑？
为什么明知道我不喜欢被盖电话，
却还是要重复做着我不喜欢的东西？
为什么我为你改变了那么多，
你还是看不见？
为什么我哭着向你说话，
你还是可以很冷静很平静的说话？
为什么在我痛苦难过的时候，
你就是不肯对我说一些安慰的话？
如果说我不爱你了，
为什么我知道我们不能继续在一起了，眼泪还是不停的流？
如果说我还是爱着你，
为什么我还是有着放弃你的冲动？
也许是知道不能和你在一起了
手不停颤抖着，不肯把戒指拿开
那是你唯一留给我的东西
我该把你忘了吗？
忘记你
会让我痛苦吗？
放下你
会让我好过点吗？
难得过了那么多难关
我们才能在一起
现在
就要放弃吗？
我不说了
那些痛苦的日子又开始了
放下你好了
爸爸，宝贝开始学习不爱你了
这个学习过程的确难过
爱一个人只需花几秒时间
然而，忘了一个人却要花几个世纪
爸爸，最后一次叫你爸爸了
潘叶琳不在这个世界了
她要到一个没有你的世界
学着如何用另一种方式去爱一个人
他日
你爱上了另一个女孩
请记得有那么深爱过你的一个女孩
她叫做潘叶琳


2：35am 31/7/2010
潘叶琳正式与陈文杰
分手了

心碎了

从来没想过
你会这样的对我说话
打这篇文章时
我的心还念记着
你刚刚说过的话
我们还走得下去吗？
如果这点点事
都弄我们这样
当初
我们经历了那么多事
现在想回
我们真的好好笑
当初那么困难
都可以轻松的挨过
现在
这点小事
你都要对我大呼小叫
我们还相爱吗
亦或是
已经不爱了

我真的很不喜欢哭
但是
跟你在一起了
我变得更爱哭了
不是我故意要哭
你也知道我个性很掘强
只是遇到你
我爱哭了
真对不起
这段日子
麻烦你了
我是爱哭鬼

accident

well, i had accident yesterday

actually is lucky because i'm still blogging here

but my meat ball

become a flat meat ball

so sorry to my meat ball

daddy, sorry

make u worry

dun angry for my careless

sorry again

dad, sorry

i know i can't handle this all

but i try to do it too

i'm your smallest daughter

give me some time to do it

i will show my best result to u

make u proud

In future

i'll buy hilux for u

not kidding

is real

if i can afford it

sorry to make u all worry about me

i'm the worst child in the world

i'm the worst girlfriend in the world

please forgive me

tired

this is the second day from morning till night tat i stay in campus

i think i will exhausted because of this

now i regret that i didn't sleep early yesterday night

i should sleep at 9pm every night

if not

the next day sure will sleep in the class

now

i'm still in library

i'm excited tat i did the MMU connection ad

actually is easy as a piece of cake

but i dun know why i spend so much time on this

and wat is lower case word & upper case word

i totally dun know about this thing

luckily daddy know about it

if not

sure i can't reset password that using the stupid case word

password isn't for your convince to memory it

is convince to the network administration

why?

if the password hard to hack

then the network administration had nothing to do

then they can sit in the office

enjoy the air conditional

and take the salary with do nothing

I still remember tat day i go to the ITSD office

i dun know how to connect for the MMU wireless

I go to the office and ask for it

the worker said to me:

"use ur webmail password to connect, u forget ur password right?"

me: "no"

worker: "then, wat u want?"

me:"i just wanna to know how to connect the wi-fi"

worker: " use ur webmail password la! i told u just now."

i totally mad after he spoke this word

i get my laptop out

and connect in front of him

i said tat

i can't connect

if i can

i won't walk so far to get the information about the wi-fi

the worker said:" ah beng, help this girl to do her thing. she said she couldn't connect the wi-fi."

ah beng:" u connect to public then access this website (access.mmu.edu.my), then u read the instruction over there."

he doesn't want to help me

he just throw the thing over me

if i know wat is the problem over here

i won't ask ur help

after tat, i still can't get it

yesterday, i met my friend in library

she teach me

and i get it right now

i think my friend is more suitable to do in the

ITSD office more than the worker and ah beng

i'm contribute for their salary

and wat i get

every semester i paid for the IT fees is about RM40

then wat i get

stupid MMU

改变

过了大概一年半载
我才知道
我所有的改变
在他的眼中
已经不是改变
我从来都没有改变过
我还是以前的那个我
原来
只有我认为自己已经改变了
难过的是
他否认了我所有的改变
虽然体贴没有100
但也比以前多了一点
但是
在他的眼中
我没有改变到

如何做
我才能让他知道我已经改变了
想到这里
眼泪不受控制的流了下来
不是因为他说我没有改变到
而是因为
原来我之前所做的
都白费了
浪费了时间
没关系
浪费了力气
没关系
浪费了人家的期望
没关系
最重要的是
我浪费了自己的品德
因为我
太自以为是了

自以为是
自己改变了
自以为是
自己做的很好了
自以为是
人家辜负了我，但其实是自己还未达到他所要的标准
自以为是
我做的够了
自以为是
人家看到我的努力了
自以为是
他看到我的转变了

这一切的自以为是
也是时候停止了

在old town的时间

我不知道我等人的时间还要多久

我的意思是我到底要这样等人等多久

但是

我愿意为了爸爸这样忍耐

爸爸所说的东西

我不知道我是否做到

但是

我会尽我的力量去做

达不达到爸爸的一百分

这是另一回事

只要我肯去做

我是爸爸的一亿分

爸爸今天羞羞哦

在巴士睡觉

睡过龙又再回到学校

奇怪的是

巴士司机是不能叫你起来的哦

成绩出来了~~

开心~~~

要开香槟庆祝

虽然cgpa是2.97

不过我这个学期课是进步了哦

有3.28咧

是不是进步神术咧？？？

爸爸

要礼物~

要礼物~

要礼物~